Day 11

Well I almost gave up yesterday. Somehow made it through. I finally can admit I am an emotional eater. My 7 year old boxer has compressed discs in his back and we have been trying to help him with drugs lowering his weight getting an orthopedic pad for him. No luck. He is miserable everywhere he goes in house. Last night he lost bladder control. I know I have to make a decision to euthanize him but I don't want to and when I have to start contemplating it. I think about grabbing something to eat. My dogs are like my kids but when you have an animal giving you a wild eye and snapping when you are trying to help him then it's time to do what's right. He is on steroids for ten more days and I want to see if it helps. If it doesn't I know the next step is the right one for him. Kids are mad at him for his behavior I screamed last night when he just squatted and started peeing on carpet. It's amazing that this stress was enough to make me admit I am an emotional eater. Also the weight blip from this weekend made me want to quit. Just that little nudge of disappointment and I was ready to throw in the towel? I guess I give up too easily on my personal life. I need to treat it like I do work and never give up until you fix it or find someone to help you! Amazingly this morning I walked into our standup meeting and there was banana nut bread and different types of popcorn. I didn't feel the loss of missing out on a treat. In the past it would have bee. Oooh I have to try it before its all gone. Instead I drank my herbal tea and when our meeting was finished I headed up to the office grabbed my first juice of the morning and started the day. I still have belly growls but they are not so bad. Have to admit no sugar shakes and that I am none weary tiredness haven't happened in a week. I haven't decided on juices for tomorrow but think may have some grapefruit blends and a few mean greens. The mean greens seem to keep you fuller longer. Today I had 4 juices. Don't know if I will have a fifth or not. I did take my blood pressure today. 128/82. My pulse was 72. My plan is to wait until next Monday to weigh again. I think the guys are lucky. It seems they lose much quicker than us girls do! I keep telling myself it's worth it to reset your life.